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5 Jun 2003 - Worried about Bailey and Now Jeffery
Bailey seems okay this morning. However, when I put her food out as i've done for the past 2 yrs at a certain time each morning, she ignored it. Bailey was fully weaned and often refused that night time ritual of a handfeeding. She'd take a taste, then off she would go.

Not anymore..

Bailey climbed down her cage and stood infront of the counter where I give the handfeedings and ate viciously. I know what this means. I've seen it before in Austin. My heart sinks and tears once again flow down my stressed face.
I placed Bailey after feeding her and giving her meloxicam and Nystatin back on her favourite hanging tree.

Now for Jeffery, my blue and Gold Macaw.

Jeffery has lost weight again this morning. She was 952 2 weeks ago. Now Jeffery is 900 grams. She is refusing her handfeedings all together, but is lightly picking at her fresh food throughout the day and is producing poops that are normally formed without much wetness. But she's losing weight?
I have been blaming Jeffery's problems on the 2 recent blood feather incidents. ON 2 occasions in the past 2 weeks, she's broken 6 blood feathers and on both occasions lost alot of blood. From her operation to remove all those horrible shafts, and as they are growing in.....she's breaking them. She HAS to be caged when not on my lap. Obviously she is not happy about that. She is depressed.

Now, do I start to wonder if Jeffery has PDD symtoms too? It's so hard when there are other factors that contribute to a birds stresses. But the fact remains, *ALL* my parrots HAVE been exposed.

I will make an appointment now for Jeffery. I have a feeling Tube Feeding for her will come into play, considering she is refusing to eat on her own. Dr. Taylor is also worried about her balance and stability problems. she falls alot and doesn't grip your hand or arm properly. Should I contribute this to PDD? Or should I contribute this to the Horrible Wing Clipping she had when she was a baby and never did gain proper balance and self confidence because of it?.

There is a still eery feeling in my heart. It's as if its sitting on a cliff, dwindling back and forth and ready to fall 1000 feet below me.

Looking back on Austins Symptoms, having a better day no longer really reassures me all is well.

5 Jun 2003 - Trying to Cope
I guess right now, Im in a feel sorry for myself mode. I guess that is what you call it?. There has just been so much heart ache with losing loved ones for me these past 2 yrs. I lost my father 2 yrs ago due to a car accident, who spent 3 yrs in and out of hospital, gathering at his bedside several times to say goodbye, and he survives. I'm still having a hard time with his death, just as Glenda does with her mother.

Having depression for years and years doesn' t help matters, and to be honest, the day I started adopting my fids, is the day i started to recover, feel better and feel that much needed love in my life. Now, losing Dawson and Austin has really hit hard and has really made life seem so unfair to me. And the prospect of losing each one of those babies I love dearly, just seems so unbearable that I can't begin to comprehend how on earth im going to deal with the pain and losses.

I can only go to bed and rest at night knowing that we all made it through a day with no signs, then at 10pm once covered, i feel relief and am so thankful for a good day without illness.

Perhaps I am capable of the compassion and love till the end, but after the "end" I don't know what to do with myself, or how to deal with the pain I feel.

I try hard and I "do" act like all is perfect in their eyes, in front of them now and yes, i've noticed them much happier and will continue for them to do so. I try hard to keep some faith in believing someone, some of them will be lucky and never succumb to PDD. It happens for others I tell myself, so is it possible for just a bit of luck for me? There is a feeling at times to want to detach myself from them, for me only that is. But I know I cannot do that, I simply wouldn't be successful.

Mabe there is a purpose beyond my own desires for what his happening. Although, I hate the way life teaches us lessons and it almost always has to be in the most painful way. I am trying my hardest to be strong and find some sort of acceptance for this situation, it's just so hard. The only way I can explain this is if someone told you, the object of your passion and love has cancer and has less then a year to live. Every moment you have with the person or object, is so emotional and you want to treasure each little taken for granted prior, "thing". It hurts very badly and its the kind of emotion that is very strange and difficult to sort out.

5 Jun 2003 - What is PDD?
This is what i've learned about PDD so far. This is my perception. It may be right. It may be wrong. But this is what I am extracting from what I read along with my Experiences to date.

Some argue that PDD is not an infectious disease, but most argue it is indeed an infectious disease. Most believe that PDD is a virus, and that is how the Avian Medical World is describing or labelling PDD. It is not certain how PDD spreads, If it does. It is uncertain how it enters a new host, but it is suggested it is through bodily fluids and not highly believed to be airborn, or contained in feather dust. No one knows why some Birds develop PDD and others do not. It has been written from research and case studies those birds experimentally exposed to an infected bird, most did not develop the disease. Yet, there are cases reported of entire flocks being wiped out by PDD over the coarse of time. And strangely enough, there are cases where only one bird dies of PDD, and the other birds did not develop the disease.

Our problem that adds to the fear of further infection, is that our birds are indoor birds, that have had restricted air flow (winter, windows closed etc), and have interacted physically for a long period of time. Not everyone creates a bird room in doors quite like I have where they can free travel.

This situation puts us at high risk *IF* PDD is an infectious disease. Because of the exchange of bodily fluids (Feeding, sharing bowls, perhaps even stepping on another poop).

Our hope, Our prayer, Our Wish is that other speculations in regards to developing PDD is true. And that is in other research case studies, where birds where exposed to the disease, either by Inoculation, or by natural exposure, most did not develop the disease which leads to the speculation 1) Conditions were not favourible within those birds to develop the disease. 2) Some birds may have a natural immunity. 3) Perhaps some birds become carriers of the disease only, never developing the disease themselves.

This is all we have to grasp and pray for some luck on our part. And also, Meloxicam. Some birds respond well to this treatment and are able to regain their previous health, eventually showing no signs of the disease. Do they stay that way? We dont' know yet, its too early in this new treatment to know or document. Do they shed the disease? We don't know this either. Do they still have PDD? Or is it out of their system ? Again, this is something we don't know based on the short time we've had treating birds with meloxicam.

Some believe (those who's birds have made a turn) that Meloxicam is a cure. Opinion obviously, but we sure are hoping...........and time will tell.

Meloxicam and Celebrex does not always work in all birds. As with Austin. It "appears" to be more successful wtih those birds who seem to only develop Digestive Symptoms of the disease. Again, speculation and not documented, and an opinion by different people.

There are so many variables with this disease.....and this is something else they do not know exactly why in some birds it affects the Digestive, Some birds it is only Neurological, and in others, it is both. Some birds develop quickly the disease and die within days or weeks. Others develop it and they slowly over months or a year approach death and worsening symptoms.

As with Austin, we cannot say 100 percen WHEN he got it, or how long he was suffering from symptoms. One would believe by the necropys and pathology results our bird suffered for a long time. He had lesions in every organ in his body, including the heart, the brain, all digestive organs. His Proventriculs was only mildly dialated. The Ventriculus was grossly involved. In others, the findings can be so totally different.

As you can tell or see, PDD is not one easy murderous disease to identify. It's been compared too HIV in adults. The medication HIV victims take, is not a cure, but it appears to lengthen the lives and allows HIV victims to live a quality of life. That is what Meloxicam does for some lucky Parrots who respond.











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